kittyCAT

look i have a new room mate - Sophia*

* I don't get to keep Sophia, but she is staying for awhile.

MYSTERYmail

a wondrous puzzle has arrived in the mail. This package, had no return address on it. On further inspection no note on the interior. More searching yielded little, the written note "sending you a warm & sunny breeze from a white sandy beach." Hmmm who has been on a warm beach? The packaging clearly says girl. Turning the sea shell over a sticker gives it all away - Made in Philippines. Hilarious, yes "made" in the Philippines, or rather found in the Philippines. I think this clue linked with the kraft paper origami crane, and girl means this mystery joy is from A!!! Also on close scrutiny the post mark is Richmond BC - so I think A was home visiting w/ her family. Or????

Am I right?

ASHwednesday

It's Lent again, to follow daily photos check over at little-lent

for now things have been changing in the home, I have this new settee!

prisonersofwinter
wear funny things, case in point >




















Here I am wearing a sweatshirt and turtle neck which i had put on earlier to meet Jel for tea. Top part, not so bad, but i am still wearing the black poly pro long underwear necessary when it is -30. I had to take the jeans off on returning home, because i can't stand the feeling of layers under them. Finding it a bit cool in the house i added giant indian pants bought in china town as wardrobe for a film. Moccasins and wool socks.

Evening versions of UNfashion are first about subtraction from the day and then addition, the morning version is a quick addition to whatever was worn overnight. I might document some of those too as they are just as ridiculous.

HOLDING|OUT...

...for spring

TORONTOPARKA

If you know me you know i HATE the parka, being forced to wear the parka is a sign of being broke by winter. All is lost, its tights, long johns, fleece, wool and down layer upon layer until I look no different than a garden gnome or a third grader at recess.

It does make things eventful, going to the post office to mail Christmas notes required a ten min layering process. Stopping for coffee was also equally burdensome. I guess this winter humiliation is what keeps Canadians humble.

The bottom photo shows the cozy side of winter storms from inside!! I was intrigued how the chandelier from inside was reflected out onto the street.

COLLECTinium

The beginnings are here - all that talk about a gallery of collections/collectors in a curated space takes its first step with a cataloging project - turn of the century beaded purses. They are marvelous and sometimes they have little treasures inside.

My work table, I'm very proud of my white gloves they make me feel official. In the background M is taking all the photos.

For a test of the lightbox, I took a pic of my in progress knitting of the new dish cloth pattern. My choice to not follow the pattern exactly is causing some irregularities.(The purse photos are much clearer and not point and shoot format, like below and i believe much whiter and brighter.)

callHOME


i should call my mom - even the world is telling me so. A walk down dundas confirmed this.


i'm very excited about this little ball of eco cotton - its going to become a dish cloth of a new pattern (to be posted soon - i hope). I actually want to skip on work and try it right now. Also very excited to learn hyperbolic crochet, later on in the month.

(above photos taken in Trinity Bellwoods Park)

SUNDAYproject

before

after

possibly it might have been better before - but regardless it felt good to affect direct change. I had picked up this ladder earlier at an antique market, it replaces a very rickety dangerous ladder.

aWALK

I had my hair cut today (happy about it) consequently was walking in Kensington Market and came across these characters. The later is an Elvis in the distance (for Sue). The usual market favorites were picked up Moroccan Olives, a strong old goat gouda from Holland, and some lovely organic grained bread. I had a little feast when i returned home adding a roasted red pepper soup - these are some of autumns little pleasures for me.

IZZYportrait

last time Isabella was at the garage she was painted by a local artist MICHAEL PIECZONKA as part of his 'plein air' series. I now have her for my very own collection. Izzy is always a source of meeting new people , incidentally this is the second artist inspired by her charm.

Isabella herself is currently looking for a new owner, with a garage and plans to make her beautiful again.

THANKSgiving

these were taken up in the Muskokas - i can't imagine anything more vibrant.

TORONTOrain

I went to work today - to an office in the architects ghetto - an architects office - its temporary for this month, but possibly i could make a place for myself. Feeling somewhat dampened from the freezing freezing rain storm i was caught in while cycling home - more blankets!

I caught this great red carpet event in a store window along queen - dedicated to TIFF. I'm back in Canada - where the moose are....


Wait i should say how i did get the job in the firm, its all through Izzy (my beetle - coincidently for sale). She stayed in a nice man's garage while i was in NYC turns out he's a millworker with connections, he arranged for my interview (found the rented garage on craig's). I interviewed for a different position as an assistant to a designers side line practice, but in the end i am at the the large firm she works for. My job hunting process is a wonder even to me.

NYCINtheDISTANCE

oh my it could be time - still in denial - lets just say "i'll see you later NY".

my boxes are packed and stacked (they have moved me 4 times in the last year).

(click photo to see more NY sites from Sue - this one from the top of the Empire State where i worked)

NYCBIRTHDAYS

Sue is turning 30!!! This was the first party to mark her 30 days of 30! Suzie next to her also shares the same birthday day as Sue. Odd, even odder all of us girls happened to wear yellow that day (see us at the kiddee table).

Plus other things last day out with some work friends, we were at the beer garden in Williamsburg. Enjoyed by all. Long benches, steins, bratwursts and cabbage. Leaving work has been much harder than i had anticipated - seems it takes a whole year to get used to the people and the work.... i'm sad to go - there were tears. I don't hate work anymore.

Lastly - if you would like these Laurel and Hardy salt/pepper shakers - first one to reply gets them. I went to pick up a morning coffee and the man behind the counter gave them to me. Story is, they were found in the basement (a box of them). So today was coffee and a free bit of oddity. Good I'd say.

NYCSUBWAY
I took these on my way home from work today, often when it is late and i have to wait for the L train I study these markings on the wall and i can always find a shape. I study them intently because i'd like to sketch them later, but i don't. So i'll begin to photograph them and then i'll have something to work off of.

Do you see the ape's face? There are more characters down there to be found! Mostly i see faces, I wonder if other people tend to see different things like animals or everyday utensils? It's like finding the shapes in clouds, only i can re-visit these because they don't change.

(above: 34th st platform - waiting for the Q or W or R doesn't matter all will take me to union sq. - below: waiting at the L)

NYCTHINKING OF HOME

Posting from the Empire State Building - working late on my last week of work. I've been image gathering for a project and I found this for my apt - I think its perfect!

NYC RAINY AFTERNOON

It's lovely and cozy, sort of cool, cooler than it has been. I'm not so good about writing when things are in flux, so in the last while there has been much debate about renewing my visa and staying longer or returning to Toronto. In the end it is back to Toronto for me with a few things on my agenda, start up a gallery about collections with Michael, and take another real work, real world design day job, but only four days a week.

I'm excited to return also because i feel like the reasons for being in NY have been revealed. The cure has been wrought, i am out of the deep rut i had been in prior to leaving. So that's it the irony of coming to a very hard city and coming out soft around the edges.

NY adventures continue - this is my bicycle. She has no name. We have not bonded, i'm not sure why. She has a rattle in her fender and her seat is some sort of icky hot foam. I don't know what it is she must be a rebound bike or something. I think when I sell Isabella, I will purchase a real bike like a kronan and call her Isabel II and it will be right. Also cycling in NY is a bit nuts, and i have yet to get used to it. Plus I did not buy the required heavy duty chain lock, so i can't leave it anywhere unless i do want to ditch it like kittens taken into the country.

I've said it before and today was the proof, cooking is rarely done in NY and those skills are learned, without practice they get rusty. Take this morning in fine Bridget Jones style, my good friend (name withheld), made brunch for me; and there was a fire! Small, containable, possibly avoidable. Nevertheless, we then ate our crouque Madames open faced and all was well. The smoked salmon in the centre was terrific. We smell a little like burnt toast now.

A little of Sue and Arden on the street, SOHO.

NYCHOLIDAYS

It's holiday weekend. We have guests and its good. I feel v. patriotic on all fronts as i took Canada Day off of work, and there was a large ensemble of characters assembled for the 4th of July fireworks. All pretty fantastic.

Now its a bit grey and refreshingly cool. Seems that everyone is somewhere else - the hamptons? Soon it will be time to reflect. Or look forward to new things in the upcoming Toronto chapter. NY is dwindling away and the list of to do and see grows in the last days. Guess it will always be nice to come back for things.

This is some of the grit and age I came here for, found in a greenpoint cafe down by the water discovered on a bicycle exploration.

NYCLETTER LOVE

These are certainly overdue! Letters from TF and Jelena, she makes the best envelopes! 'Perfect 4 you' is for another post but lets just say, I'm in a french girlish mood. Plus a hat, I'm feeling weak, I have an injection into the economy cheque in my pocket and its hot. Is there a better way to spend it but frivolously? and it is American, Victor Osborne is right here in my Brooklyn neighborhood, a mere peddle away.

NYCFIND

I ran into these two characters on my walk home last night. I don't think i even need to go into it - the garbage bags tied around their chests and their happy oblivion!! It's too much - dude you are in a garbage bag on the curb - don't you see what's happening??

Makes me wonder what kind of garbage bag i'm wearing that everyone else can see?

ps - back story, i walked by these two on the sidewalk, did the classic double take, in front of a man putting out his garbage. He raises an eye-brow i feel compelled to explain, I must take a photo. He notices how interested i am taking different angles trying out the flash - its dark. Then he asks if i am Jewish or Christian. I answer Christian. He goes back into the house. Satisfied or disappointed?

NYCWEEKEND

Enjoying a butter sandwich and a coffee around the corner from home - where i can pick up reliable valid free internet. Stange connection form the air. What happens when you inhale all of this information - over time will we be smarter, learning things in our sleep? Our dreams being informed by the air we breath?

Staycation update - moved to aug. 1st. I gave notice of notice last week and it was established that that was a good time. So i still get to develop a concept for a bar in an interesting 5star boutique hotel. The balance, while on the other hand I continue to make the world ugly one gaudy carpet a time.

Part of experiencing NY is to learn a little more about it's mythology, and this weekend i dive into one of Sue's most formative books - Harriet the Spy! As Harriet lived on the upper east side - I will be able to relate from my days at Arden's. Pretty sure this will not convert me to an egg cream lover, but possibly i will be inspired to write more about the people that I see.

I have been meeting some characters, of note: Jordan Catalona - you only know this name if you watched 'my so called life' with Claire Danes. Funnily I did not watch the show as it aired, due to the single tv situation. I was too embaressed to watch it with the rest of the family, anyways if hockey was on it always won out. So I've been catching up on episodes here, sort of reliving a bit of my teen years. So this is it - Jordan, the downcast eyes, shifting over to the side and then off into the distance, a perfect nonchalant slouch which melds well into walls and lockers. This guy I swear is him, it's possible his heart only beats once a minute. First time i met him he had an enormous ZZ top kind of beard and long hair. the next time, no beard and shoulder length hair (this is when i realized he was Jordan), and last week he had normal short shaggy hair (slightly long side burns), but wow, what will he do to radically change his appearance next time i see him?

Enough for now that is one of a cast of characters, i know in NY.

NYCRED VELVET

I am unexpectedly home in the middle of the day - feel like i am skipping school - no one is home i am listening to music LOUD - so grade 8 right now.

Oh I'm not really cutting class or work - since our office is moving to the empire state building. I went in to pack my boxes and take home a few wonderful items like this plant, and i know it is mine because i found the babies in it - i don't know where these mini babies come from but they seem to follow me around.

Plus a pair of Artemide lamps for me and one for Sue's kitchen - perfect!



Below pictures of REd Velvet gifts from Arden eaten in Greenwich with Sue, and a conveyor belt of Sushi - so good.

NYC MOMENT OF FAME

Here it is my Harlequin cover! Thank-you Blake and Darryl. Hilarious - yes that shadow is me - can you see the apprehension in the hand? This makes me feel a little like Nancy Drew.

Wait 'Inspirational Romance??!!!

NYC MEMORIAL DAY

It's been awhile, most recently - I took my first yoga class yesterday - let me tell you - yoga is NO joke. My legs still feel like unsteady fawn legs. At this studio i will also try tai chi and pilates. The lack of physical activity is getting to me and as much walking that gets done it just doesn't cut it.

I've had lots of visitors and my parents were here! V. neat to give them an eye full of my life :)

It's coming down to the last months of my year here in NY. Little is know about the future, and i plan to take some time to test out opportunities to see where that will take me. I was reminded of my least harness able talent - to meet people, who in turn introduce me to other people.

At the tail end of my holiday around my parents visit, on a rainy day I convinced myself that if i did not get off the subway and explore a bit i would regret it eventhough the day was miserable.

Of course it did pay off I was sitting in a little ancient cafe in nolita and a man at the counter struck up a conversation with me. He owns a bar in the neighborhood and knows my favorite design firm founders - he left hints that he'd introduce me!

So that's it my plan is to take one month off here in NY and explore the things i wanted to see in NY like galleries and furniture shops and places of wonder and talk to the strangers i meet. Then at the end of that time, wherever the opportunities are I'll follow. That's a plan A if i've ever heard one.

But truly its so difficult to not have an idea yet keep pushing into the unknown. Eventhough i usually find myself beyond my wildest dreams. This is no different, some days i look at my shadow and ask her if she ever thought she'd live in NY? Since she never looks ahead but always follows, i get a bit of a shrug from her and a smile.

ps - i do have a scheme for back home in toronto - which i'm v.excited for so we'll see what happens

nassau, originally uploaded by little liSa 06.

NYCHOME

Place making a little of this n that. Book a present from Mel (Edmonton), nassau brick from Garden place (ironicly nassau is my subway stop), painting by Sherie-Anne (Toronto), table and space NY.

NYCMOVING

The last days at Garden Place are coming to an end. Dave is all out and its just me for the next few days. I've decided to live in all of the rooms. So my bed room is only a bed room. I am still using Lise's room as a dressing room. I don't know what to use Dave's room as but i took a photo of it. I set up my reading and writing chair in the living room complete w/ sheep skin rug. The dining room holds my typing table, I thought about sewing but I eagerly packed all kinds of things yesterday. So today I catch up and enjoy space.

Oh and i'm moving to greenpoint - semi hipsterville - if i want to take the L into the city, i'll need to walk briskly though the ironic paper people.

Today begins lent, I'm going to observe it in some way - through images I think, I don't really know what shape it will take - first day about the ashes - dust to dust, we are but dust. you can see it here.....

http://little-lent.blogspot.com/

NYC OBSESSION

For a little while now I've been knitting little sweaters, I knew it had gone too far when I made one for the pencil, but I continued with the nano case.

Decisions have been made - and i will switch rooms to save some $$$ Thus I get to make another little space home. I will paint for sure and since I can't get over how much I love gray mist, that shall be the color I paint. I have used this color at home in my loft, and have since used it on two other projects and recommended it for at least another two. It's made by Benjamin Moore. Feel free to use it yourself, you'll not regret it.

NYCNEW YEARS!





so it's a new year, and I should be more practical, but faced with a dead simple decision. Save money or not? at the moment we've had a room free up in the house - should i switch and save a ton of cash (most practical), or stay in the room that feels like home, with the view and all the windows, roof access, half bath, double size, opportunity to hear the rain fall etc. etc. i love my room space - i don't think i can switch....

ps - that's Jelena above at Rockefeller Centre, the year started on the write note with a much loved visit!!!!

pss - wonder why people always ask Sue and I if we are sisters! we had the fabulous 'little black dresses' on

Good-bye 2007,

All I could think of as i closed my eyes for a late afternoon nap, was the next time i see the sun it will be a new year. 07 was all about stage prep. Going from a conversation I had with Jam that ran along the lines of me expressing that I couldn't go anywhere or try something new, to a job offer in England to the great move to NY.

So here I am ready to embrace this new city and new life, all the awkwardness and hesitation and doubt about the move have been taken over with a new thought - I want to be here!

So tomorrow morning I begin a new year, in a new place...

NYC + SUE




Sue + Elvis are here! Not only is Sue fab in NY she helped me change my banner. Things are good. I do positively HATE my job, but whatever I hate my job in NYC!

PS - more credit is due to Jam as he gave me the super type bits!

NYC OLD THINGS NEW

These things have traveled with me many places. First - these were my grandmother's. Part of a childhood tea set. I remember playing with them when we went to visit Grandma on the farm. They could be found in the blue tartan vanity amongst other treasures. In toronto they used to sit on top of a painting here they have found a window sill ledge.



Second this little sailor also came from the farm, but who's it was I can't say. But, he's been to the blue house with me, giving a cheery salut at my door. Then onto Toronto where he winked at me as I did the dishes. Now he's also found a window sill. - picture forthcoming - it was too dark - as it is cloudy today :(


In other news my next project is in Toronto - guess I get to keep my ties with that city. I flew in for a meeting last week. There was no time to see anyone but walk so quickly along streets I used to linger on - a little strange.

NYCSKY HIGH


going up in an exterior elevator to see some condos under construction in chelsea. looking down 41 stories, and stepping over air and into the cab. those flags are everywhere...



in a city as small as this, i had a run in w/ Arden at the IIDA (international interior designers association) gold eve.



Sue in central park after all the interviews! now we wait its sooo exciting....

NYC MOVE to Brooklyn Heights!!!



I now have space - even room to spin! I also have two roommates, Lise and Dave, they seem normal and positive. The apartment is superb, we are on the top two floors of a brownstone, stoop and all.
My room is the attic room, w roof access!!! It's strangely like my home in toronto, on the top floor, skylight, ceder clg, wood floors, and a bunch of my stuff, even a rickety ladder (to the roof, see photot of view) and fortunately also furnished. A few pluses looking west, so the sunsets right across my floor, and silhouettes the statue of liberty. I've traded landmarks - the cn tower for the big lady.


Arden helped me move all of my things on Saturday - four flights of stairs, and not a complaint. Dave was around and also lent a hand. I've done some remarkable things in the last few days like buy groceries. Also in true NY style i've outsourced - my laundry.

The area is soooo sweat - trees, narrow streets - no sirens, and lovely little shops and terrific food. I ate at a dangerously good english pub last night. I'm really going to enjoy exploring this neighborhood.

ps - more pic's on flicker....

So the blog has been neglected for some time - things have been rough and moving has been much more of a challenge than i had anticipated. It's been difficult to suck it up and i might have just complained if i wrote anything so here are the things that help me to carry on...


antiques - antiquing - here are some marvelous finds from the hell's kitchen open air market. it eluded me for several weeks as it rained a few times i tried to find it and on the other outings - i just walked and walked but couldn't hit the right cross street. when i did finally find it i was very pleased with myself.

the fingerless mitts have needed reworking as the first one had a severe case of ladders - the only way to remedy such a malady is to unravel the entire thing and begin again - knitting often takes place at the laundromat.

i don't know what else i have pictures of, but soon I ought to have some before and afters of my new place!!! i could be moving in the next week - its a little up in the air as i wait for the old flatmate to return from camping? i'll be living w strangers a guy and a girl, i responded to their craigslist posting. it's in my favorite neighborhood - brooklyn heights! i'll have a view of the manhatten skyline from my attic room w/ roof access. Where i can feel like a giant because i can touch the ceiling - lets just say apt hunting in ny is interesting.

next up once tucked away in brooklyn - a bicycle, and i know just where to get the next beauty, i saw a gorgeous orange schwinn w/ chrome fenders, circa 60's approx, post cruiser days but a sweet upright. i hope she is still there...

the best news of all is that Sue is coming to interview!!! there is always room for one more in nyc...

NYC - Knits!


















also this is St. Pauls on Lexington. V. close to where i work. I stopped by on my way to.

I'd seen this church interior in a magazine before and thought it was in Sweden - but no it's here! I think i'll attend a service there too! Not that i'm picking my church on looks.

I'm knitting fingerless mitts and have learned two new stitches.

NYC Life,

Is it that yet? Still trying to find my feet in this new place. Routine helps a bit I pass my small change off on the banana man, and pick up egg and cheese sandwiches on the way to work. I spend some of the weekend in Central Park. Days at work are challenging - I miss freelance world - and wonder about corporate world - on the most part so far i do not think of work outside of work.

In the mornings I cross the Seagram Building courtyard, past the Alexander Caldwell statue and walk under the arms of Lever House. These iconic buildings are in my daily world.


I don't know what to say about new york or about living here, my feelings are mixed.

In New York :)

Don't know what to say, there is no way to sum up the last week which included packing up, saying good bye, not being able to say good bye, and just plain leaving for this unknown day.

None would have been possible without the love and help from friends, and support from my family. Darn I just made myself homesick.

Today was my first day of work, so it feels sort of closer to reality. Each day feels like two or more. I was taken out for lunch in a three story cavern off Madison Ave. where we crossed over other lunchers via bridges. Pretty wonderful.

Ever wonder whats in store, what's down the road? Well it can be something much bigger than you imagined. I'm in awe that at this moment this is what's for me. I almost forgot my fortune cookie at lunch said "the year ahead promises to find you in many interesting positions." Yoga? Possibly. But wow yes one year that is the initial goal!

NYC: Is Going to be My HOME!!

Dream number whatever "to live and work in New York City!" Coming up!

As of Aug. 13th I'll be working and living in New York City. I have no words to describe the feeling. They fall on either polar side of elation to fear to what have I done?! Feelings in opposition are simultaneous and spinny.

I haven't been this excited since... makes me wonder if part of excitement is the element of fear and danger like a roller coaster.

I'm going to have a look at an apartment on my way out of town this eve. At which time real madness begins as i pack my apartment up.

Everything to come is unknown.

Thank-you Arden! (we are both recruiting - Sue and Satomi we expect u in September!)

somebody pinch me - this is crazy :)

NYC - OFFER DAY!

That's it the offer is on the table - I am to accept tomorrow!!!
Run home quickly pack, and return to begin work next week!!!
It's not the dream dream job but it's location fits the dream realm!!

yikes!

NYC - Recruitment!

This is an all call - open call. Start thinking about it now - if you've ever wanted to live in New York - you know you have - begin acting on it now!

I still don't know exactly whats in store for me over here, but I did have a good interview earlier today :) and the fire flies in central park are enchanting.

NYC DAY ?! Lets just call it ephiphany day.....

Q: Ok so what is most sought of any trip?
A: Direction/self discovery.

I think I've found some ie. to become an ART DIRECTOR/PRODUCTION DESIGNER. Yes, it might already have looked like that was where I was heading but only by sitting in interviews and seeing a dream job posting, have I really fully seen where I fit.

So this it the idea/plan.
1. find/accept a job here in New York (interiors that'd be fine)
2. volunteer on the side to gain more experience in the moving and still photography world.
3. ? well that's as far as I've gotten... I guess take over the world.


This was me finding out that my camera has a time stamp as I was waiting for the interview, no phone means no clock. Now rectified, as I have a new phone!

ps - I'm writting this from Central Park - love free wifi! This is now officially my new

NYC DAY 4/5



> Little to report from yesterday as I stayed mostly closeted inside w computer to job hunt. No worries it was raining.

> Today also will be about portfolio editing and adding, as I have an interview tomorrow :) So not too much excitement or exploration, but i shall fit it in after the interview.

> Nevertheless it's just plain inspiring to be here and to work towards something, a possibility that this could be my city. If it were to be mine, I think I'll take up jogging in Central Park. I stumbled upon the Jacquie O reservoir this morning.

> This was taken in Saks - love the pleated detailing and 3/4 sleeve, just so I can wear a pair of slouchy leather gloves - one day when employed but for now I can just imagine.

NYC DAYS 1:2+3



Stepping off the subway I was greeted with THIS! I'm only sort of disappointed its an advert for a college, but really there is an awful lot of collective consciousness seeking to live the questions. Today is the first real day of job hunting, etc. I should step out first to sip an iced coffee - the drink to brand this time. I've never had one before but when Arden ordered one at the Boathouse, it seemed just right so i did as well. Now it's the New York drink for me.

I believe there are no procrastinators in New York, so if i want to fit in I must get to work...

packing for NEW YORK!!!!

See my portfolio is under that heap o maps. Certainly: unfinished but under way. There shall be time to work on it while i'm over there. By the absolute generosity of Arden I can stay with her while i search and search and search some more.

The thing is to live the "questions" as an author that Sue has been reading stresses. So I'm living out this question: is NYC for me? is NYC for me now? what does NYC hold for me? what do i bring to the world?

hmmmmm.... i guess i could pack brighter colors....

LOFT BED details, 10'x6' = 60 new sq.ft.

2"x2" Extruded Hollow Aluminum Tubing 1
1/4" x 1 1/4" Extruded Hollow Aluminum Tubing
1/2" x 6" x 10' long Cedar Decking

showing views from below and above to see more

These were the red velvet cupcakes partaken of w Sue to celebrate her interview and console the new short hair. Must have worked things are getting better, and it's time to turn the attention back to work looking.

so sad - until i get used to this - i miss my hair...

I sat in the chair and declared I wanted something different, looked at my hair thinking it was just right, but then again I should take a chance and try something new. Ok cut it quick before i lose my nerve. I couldn't see all the length falling off the back but when she worked around the side, and cut those last bits. I wanted to jump up and run. It was all I could do to put a little week half smile on but i was CRYING inside CRYING!

Oh another rash decision!

I'm on a role! Stay posted for NYC or no NYC (since there is to be no UK). The work permit would take a specialist with a miraculous touch to make it happen, but I'm only partially let down as I concluded things with the boy over there. So beyond the Jane Austen festival and a season of design abroad, not too much will be missed, and I don't have to live in Sue's sewing room or other such places as Blake has found a way cooler place to call home than here. So horray - I can stay, and wait for my hair to grow back.

thinking about cutting my hair... not just the normal trim, or the usual cut it the same but slightly different. i'm thinking DIFFERENT! Say short at the back but long on the sides. It would still look long from the front, which is what i see, but be surprisingly short at the back. But not too short at the back, just a bit. Would it be detrimental to possible hopefully future job interviews? Well whatever if it were to be a problem then i guess they just are not the firm for me.

Appointment is booked for wednesday - i can still change or make up my mind.....